Friday, December 09, 2011

Too Many Thoughts

I was thinking about how I love to learn. I have a great passion for education.

It's exciting for me to learn a new concept. When I understand a hard concept for the first time, I feel really productive. I enjoy the wisdom that flows from understanding. I truly believe that knowledge is power.

Lately, I've been thinking a lot about Christianity. I think about the questions that no one likes to ask. I've been asking a lot of questions and praying for the answers. I know some of the answers, but not all and that's absolutely fine.

Sometimes, I get a little frustrated with the Universal Church. I love it so much, but I want it to want more for itself. Since the Church is a body of believers, I believe that we all need to work out some of our issues dealing with some controversial topics. I get upset at times with Christians, not all, but a few of the celebrity Christian so called "leaders". I feel like I need to write it down and get rid of the anger. 

My frustration with Christians comes from the fact that numerous Christians are afraid to research the Bible. I think so many people are arrogant because they believe that church leaders know everything, but in reality, there are truly several  pastors that are uneducated and ignorant of the bible in the USA. Many leaders only teach what they have been taught. There are a lot of Christian pastors/leaders that don't really know anything about what they are preaching.

I don't understand why people think this is ok. I don't think it's right. I believe that if we are wrong, we should not be scared to admit that fact. If we are right, we don't need to boast, but we should be humble. Let's rejoice in progress. 

Thursday, July 14, 2011


Sitting in a dark room and listening to the motor of my a/c while a few raindrops hit the roof is very peaceful. I like rain. I guess I enjoy it because it's strange. Rain is something wet falling from the sky that helps plants to grow and turns good dirt into dark mushy mud.

Rain is soothing and sexy. Rain is good! All good things come from God.

Rain is needed. We have to have it. We need the moisture from rain to moisten the soil.  We can't be dry, and neither can the earth be dry. We have to have something that can penetrate our skin, our earth, and, maybe, even our souls. Rain is that something.


Thursday, March 10, 2011

I'll write if you promise to read..Deal?

I remember a time when I used to love to journal. It was a wonderful time in my life. I could get all the feelings and emotions out on a nice clean page, and then I would let it go. I was done with whatever was troubling my thoughts, whatever was keeping me awake at night. I miss the days of my friends on Xanga. There was an honesty about actually taking the time to share what was on our minds, but now in the digitally connected social world we all live in, we are so distant from one another.

 People are on Facebook and Twitter so much. They write a quick update and go about their day. Or some peruse the Newsfeed and find that one status that they will comment on for the day. I guess that's important...maybe not. I tend to not write anymore, because I don't believe that most people will get off their "lazy" long enough to read anything I or anyone else has to say about themselves.

Do we really want transparency? Do we really care? Do we have the time to really get to know our "friends"? Is it worth our time to actually read the inner thoughts of a Facebooker or a Tweeter?

If you want to know more about me, then actually comment and ask me to write more and I will, but otherwise I won't waste my time.

I don't need attention or your feedback. I do appreciate it when people actually are open and they learn something. I don't NEED to put myself out the digital world. I want to let you in, but I feel that I don't NEED to do it. I would just as happy living in a none "Socially Networked" world than participating in one.

As a friend of mine said pertaining to Facebook and Twitter, "It's a false connection, false community and I participate in both."