I hate relationships. I wish I had a relationship with someone. I want to feel close to someone. Is that so bad? I don't know what I want sometimes. I don't want to date. I just want close intimate friendships now.
But I have a problem, most of my friends are guys, and guys don't like to open up to girls. So, I feel like I'm on the outside all the time. I wish that men would trust me enough to let me in their world. I just want to understand what they feel and what their dreams are, but no no no they never ever let me in.
I don't want to give up, but sometimes it feels like there isn't any hope when it comes to this subject.
So, I'm gonna try not to push and just let God do the work.
I'm gonna obey what the Lord tells me to do.
Even when it doesn't make sense.